Gone.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

This post is for Royce or maybe somewhat to pour out my feelings for him like how I feel.

His one of the bf that last the longest with,

spend the most effort, love & care for.

3 years plus relationship end on 15 March 2009.

I just wanna recap what happened the past few years

between him & me.

His doing well now, and no longer bothered about our past relationship.

I'm happy that his doing great now.

I remember we use to watch anime together,

but before that we'll cook or buy tibits to eat while watching the shows.

Or sometimes we see nice show advertise we will wait till that timing to watch together.

But I'm the idiot who always went fell asleep half way through the show.

Then he will take out my spec and put me my head on the pillow

and cover me with blanket.

Remember you will always use small pillow to cover my eye so that

I wont wake up so early in the morning?

Then he will continue to watch so the next day I'll ask him what happened in the end.

Then he will say, " Watch show with you, you always fell asleep."

When comes to cooking,

We'll cook together for his family.

But at times because of cooking we will have a small quarrel.

Silly of us isnt it?

Ya end up he cook well without me =)

Remember you told me this, " Actually I didnt really sleep right after you sleep,

cause I was looking at you sleeping and "sayang" your head."

For that moment he told me this is when we are at the verge of ending.

Tears automatically fell down from my eye.

After so many years this years is the 1st time we celebrate our 1st Valentine together.

Cause all the way while his in camp,

and I remember once he call his mum to help him get flower for me

and call me to go over his house to get it.

Cause he was in camp and unable to get it so get his mum to help.

Sweet still~

It's sincere that counts.

Thanks.

His the one at later part of our relationship who remember our anniversary

but not me.

What a girlfriend I am.

His the one who's always looking over me,

teach me ways of life, how to judge and to be more clever.

Cause he've always said that my brain is square shaped.

Basically he keep me away from harm.

I remember once I've got problem,

he tried his best to book out from camp.

The 1st thing he saw me,

he look at my face all over and asked, "Dear are you ok?"

His so cute and I was touched*

His the one taking care of me whenever I'm sick or not feeling well.

Now I have to do everything on my own,

never felt so lost before.

I've got a aim/goal and now it's gone.

You will cook for me when I complain I'm so hungry even though you are so tired,

always make sure that my stomach is always cover under his blanket.

Or if too painful you will rub my stomach with ointment.

Give the best that you can to me.

Like the meat with fats you will let me eat the meat and you eat the fats.

Cute isnt it?

I just wanna be that good girlfriend that I use to be when I'm with you.

My world only consist of Royce,

no other people.

Spend 24/7 of my time on him.

Even though the moments gone I'm still holding on somehow,

wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry.

I'm still holding on to our photos, the dried roses, our couple polo tee,

3 pendants, small plushies and the sheep pillow.

I'm in love with my greatest regret

and that's Royce.

From here on I'll move on,

cause right now the current Royce is doing well & happy.

All the best to my love.

♥ 12:51 AM

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Why is it that a simple thing is very hard to achieve?
Blame myself for being naive.
Should just sit back and relax.
Do whatever I want but of cause positive stuff =)
One day I believe I will find someone who I appreciate and the other
will appreciate me too.
Must stay positive.
I hope everyone stay happy and if attached they are blissfully attached.
Knowing that people around me are happy, I'll feel happy too.
But right now I'm kinda down,
upset of what have been happening recently.
Need to get out to get some fresh air.
Hurt.

♥ 11:30 PM

Stupid blogger dont know what's happening to it.
Cannot even post a proper post roar~
Now my post style is like default.
Wait untill it's ok then I'll blog.
I miss ... <3
I dont know why suddenly I wanna get attached.
Laugh out loud!
Maybe some sort of influence by the sweet couples around me =x
But I know I want ...
Haha ^^

♥ 9:00 PM

Somehow my previous BLOOD & SWEAT post went crazy.

Need some edit than I can get it post up.

Just got home from lan session with Issac & Jason.

Was fun and somehow we play with some friendly peeps.

The girls are pretty!

Off to bed~

Stupid Zhu end up never turn up meeting us,

but I understand.

Reformate my lappy yesterday afternoon,

later on wake up have to set everything right like install etc.

OMG~

Tomorrow maybe can start painting my wall if Zhu is not meeting me.

Night peeps~

All the love in the world~

♥ 6:14 AM

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

DISCLAIMER

If you have something against me,

dont read or exit my blog then =)

Yesterday James came to fetch me at around 2 plus and we head

to GIANT to lunch first then got a roller for my

purple paint.

(James is someone I knew for 7 years I guess?)

When I reach counter I then realize that I forget to bring my wallet out.

Then James fetch me back home to get my wallet,

then when we are was about to go to the express way.

I saw the sky was cloudy so I told James that I wanna go back home andkeep my clothes which I air it outside.

I call James to wait below my house,

i went up my house the moment I open my window

"BANG!"

Then James quickly call me said that he saw what happened

said that he will get the bamboo up my house LOL!

The moment he was at my house doorstep we both laugh like no tomorrow.

He said the way I keep my clothes is different from people,

cause I keep my clothes from level 1 then back to my storey. =x

Make me laugh till my stomach cramp.

Then we head to IKEA to exchange my curtain rod to another curtain cause mummy want me to get wooden rod.

Then James start to crap again said that whatever I do yesterday is opposite,

example the clothes incident then we enter IKEA by the exit like we walk opposite direction instead of using entrance.

Aftermath we head to GIANT to get some food and he fetch me home to put my stuff and send me to Comfort Driving Centre and he head home.

Throughout the journey we laugh non stop, It's so fun and funny.

OK back to my RTT~

Normally I will book many e-trails and read the books up just to study for RTT.

Then whenever I finish my test I will check back to see if I answered it correctly.

End up a super embarrassed "FAIL" appear at the end of the test.

Yesterday I was like aiya anyhow do then I can head home,

moreover there's a guy beside me super smelly.

I was telling myself quickly get over with the test and I get away from my seat.

When I see the question I was like SHIT! I've never attempt before then again

I told myself anyhow guess and I can quickly SIAM that guy.

I was enduring with the smell T.T

OMG~

End up "PASS" at the of the test I was like OMG!

Cause normally I feel that I will pass end up fail and this time

I feel that I will fail end up pass

Lady luck is shinning on me

Life's better starting from yesterday

I'm content & happy.

Head home, bath and dinner and head out to meet Thom & Issac.
Thom is my secondary one friend and Issac is his childhood friend.

Both of them drove to my house downstairs,
then head to serangoon to fetch Thomas's cousin and we head to
Lor Yang Tao Bei Gong to pray.

On the way to Serangoon.

Issac TWIST*

When I took this photo Issac thought it was speed camera's flash LOL!

Disgusting cockroach from my my house below cause Thom said that
when he got down the car he saw many cockroach at my house below.
EWWW~

We saw it when we reach Thom's cousin house outside,
then Thom attempt to drive merry-go-round around the neighborhood and hoping that the wind or what will get the cockroach off. LOL~
His reaction was cute.
End up Issac also almost merry-go-round when Thom drove back to his cousin's house outside.
Then Thom's cousin got down Issac's car to get rid of it LOL!
Off to pray~

End up me and Thom pray only and Issac and Alvin was outside waiting for us.
Slack outside the temple awhile.

After that we head to a petrol station to get water and stuff and we
head to Changi to slack~
Let the photos do the talking =)

After that Issac went home, Thom sent his cousin home and the
both of us head to Puggol end to slack awhile and fetch me home.

First attempt taking photo with Flash,
Thom cannot TAHAN the flash =x

2nd attempt: Thom, " Try my best to keep my eyes open" LOL~

3rd attempt: Thom, "Cannot take it again." Close eye*

4th attempt: Finally a proper photo with Thom -_- phew~

Later on meeting up them for lan session =)
Right now I'm off to my chores.

♥ 3:01 PM

In Thomas's car.

DISCLAIMER
If you have something against me,
don't read or exit from my blog =)

I know I'm too lazy to blog =x
Oh my god!
I'm so happy that I pass my RTT finally!
I'm getting near to my dream!
I had a fun day yesterday.
I'm a happy girl now =)
It's 5.11am now!!! Off to bed first before I proceed with more details of my fulfilling day!

Need to reformat lappy
Paint wall
Clear up the mess I had in my room & living room (All my stuff OMG!)
Wash clothes T.T

This is all the stuff I should do now =) Off to bed!

♥ 5:09 AM

Monday, July 27, 2009

I so so so happy =)
That I cant calm down and explain how i feel.
When I'm feeling calm then I will explain in details.
Jason's birthday was fun =)
More like a secondary meeting.
Hougang secondary peeps rock!
Love you guys~

♥ 11:31 PM

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Many things happened recently.

It only today it's a relieve to me =)

Happy though ^^

I've did what I can though to me I've tried my best

but to someone I can do it even better.

At least I tried =)

Time to move on with happier life ahead ^^

Hmm 13 July I already started painting my room,

it's alot of work!

Like you've got to do the preparation like wipe the wall clean,

tap the edges, shift furniture and lay out newspaper before painting.

OMG!

I swear this is the 1st and last time I'm gonna paint my room.

So I'm gonna make it a nice one~

14 July I went to CDC and I saw CW and 2 of his friend and also rainbow jelly

(it's a nick name of my cute friend)

After that home straight away~

15 July didnt continue with painitng cause rainy day!!!

So went to the bank to help parent draw money,

get some shampoo <3>

Have been dota-ing recently so crazy!

This afternoon paint my room again so I'm still left with two walls to work on

cause today I did the touch up and 2nd cover.

Not gonna say what's the actual painting will be untill it's done ^^

Then next week gonna go to Ikea and get curtain rod and curtain!

I'm a happy girl~

♥ 6:40 PM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

It's been quite awhile since I last blogged.
The blog's skin is not ready yet,
due to laziness.
Anyway tomorrow I've got to paint my room
and goodbye to the kiddy paint of my room for been here for
dont know how many years.

Anyway some mess I've make again,
to certain extent it's my fault but it have not been some shit that happened
I wouldnt have make some wrong decision.
Due to my stupid-ness and for been impulsive on my decision
i consider myself as stupid.
Anyway pea brains, get the full story before judging.
Dont judge things by just listen to a person who's so sly and excel in talking.
You pea brain do not have any ideas of what really happened and the pain that
I'm going through that have lead to this mess.

I do not need pea brain friends.
That person did wrong but pea brains did not make any comment.
But when i did wrong the pea brains comment so much.
What is wrong with this pea brains.
It's obviously hypnotized by that person.

Fancy telling me you are disgusted by yourself for the drama you created and
now you repeat twice.
You still consider yourself as a man when you reacted like a puss?
Still dare to say that you are disgusted by other people who create drama
when you are the one creating the worst drama ever?

I'm no push over!
Just your stupid drama wont make me fall,
rather I grew more stronger.
Can you see the different between how you and me handle problem?
You handle it like a puss, screaming, yelling, tarnish people's reputation,
telling people your one sided story to make the other look ugly and
put on fake front that you are the "good guy".
Get a life =)

It's my blog, I can blog anything I want.
Not happy don't visit than =)
I did not lose anything by the way ^^

♥ 9:46 PM

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Ok this is gonna be a long post,

It will be some what daily updates of what

I've been doing past few weeks.

Monday (25.05.09) slacked the whole day at home L4D,

but didnt really get a proper game like every inhouse game cannot complete till 3rd map.

All of them are like disconnected =(

Or it's either I wait till very piss.

After math I went to change bedsheet,

later on wake up still got to vaccum the floor and so on.

Jileen contact me after so long =)

Tuesday straight after I woke up I do all the chores.

L4D the whole day,

train, train & train.

Wed head out with friends a fun day though =)

Zoe ask if I wanna do bikini calender ad shoot for a car company around July,

but havent send in my portfolio =x

Thursday head out with friends again, superb ^^

Friday head out again, won't go in of much details =x

Happy that LiWen contact me after so long,

gonna meet her asap after my competition

and Jileen's birthday is on 07.06.09.

Chris call me to go Boiler but due to my headach I didnt went down.

Surprising that Friday night I didnt went clubbing.

Shock that Shannon message me ask if I'm asleep,

he always message me in the wee hour asking the same question.

Today will be training L4D at home for the whole day

cause WCG coming on this coming Friday (05.06.09) to

Sunday (07.06.09) at Safra.

Scare that I cant do well, hai.

Ok I will rewind back now what I've been doing before this week.

19.05.09 Tuesday suddenly Shannon message if I wanna head out at 9.53pm and

so I went out with him.

When I reached house below got onto the car than I realise Kenneth was

in the car too.

We went to a block below to chill out awhile at Bishan than head over to Hougang.

Head to Loyang to pray, head to Geylang for supper.

After that they play number ball and I forget around what time we head home.

Wed head to serangoon for supper with Shannon, kenneth co.

After that we head to Marina Barriage to chill and head home after that.

12 May head out to settlers with Leasth, Yuki, Kaka, polo and Jelly
after that Chris came over to fetch me and we head over to 85 for supper.
Went to pray at Loyang and head home.

I think this is all that I remember.

I went out so offen that I do not really remember when and where I am.

Will try to blog more offen.

So that I wont lose track of I've been doing.

Will upload photos when I can =)

♥ 2:05 PM

Monday, May 25, 2009

It have been quite awhile seen I last blog.
So many drama happened again,
I'm so tired of it.
The worst is you are the one trying to calm the whole situation down,
where else there some trouble maker making life hard for you.
Dont you trouble maker have anymore better things to do than
making life difficult for victim like us?
Arent you all tired of all this drama.
I do not want trouble maker to be my friend,
this kind of friend is better be thrown away.

Trouble maker who want to run my life the way they want and
forcing me to say out the things that they want or what they expect the story to be.
WHY?
I really dont understand at all,
ruining people's life is that all that you know or make you feel happy about?
I feel that I do not have to hide the way how I felt about them.
By the way this is my blog,
I've got my free will to write anything that I like.
Not happy about what I've blogged?
You are welcome to exit then =)
I dont need people like you in my life.

Does it really matter how I run my life or who I choose to be friend with
or who to be my love one or where I'm heading?
Or what things that's regarding about my life you have to poke your nose in?
It's my life so leave me alone.

♥ 10:13 PM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Many thing have happen in my life recently.

Ups and downs,

that's life but I've learn quite a few stuff.

Life's alot better now, meaning carefree.

Learned to forgive and forget because I perfer to lead

a happy life rather than be bothered by uneccessary stuff.

I'm not your source of entertainment.

I just wanna lead a peaceful life.

I'm content that I've got a happy family, girlfriends who

are always out there for me and some close friends of mine who

are there to guide me and help me.

It's enough.

Of cause thanks to a special one who there for me always =)

It's 6.40am and I'm still awake.

After this I'll be off to bed.

Friday was a super crazy day for me,

I've never sleep for 24 hour and I went out to 4 places within that day.

First went to do something important next went to sentosa then

meet up with my L4D friends for steamboat session and last is

drinking session at Luna with my friends opening 4 to 5 bottles of Martell

till I cannot hold out anymore and head home at 2am with Alvin sending me home.

Fell asleep right at the moment I got on to his car,

I'm so dead beat!

Yesterday woke up at 1 plus or 2 pm, L4D a round and I'm off to bed

till 7pm I woke up and went out to have dinner and head back home

at around 11 plus. L4D 2 rounds and I slack all the way till now.

Goodness~

Later on still got to do house chores, paint my nails and most important is

to upload photos that I've taken ^^

I'll be back in the afternoon to blog again!

PS: This blog is not official yet due to countless time of my blogger been hack.

Will be taking my lappy for servcing on this coming Tuesday.

So meaning I wont be online for awhile.

Till my lappy recover than everything will be official =)

♥ 6:32 AM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

♥ 8:49 PM

Friday, May 1, 2009

After so many things have happened recently.

I have really seen enough of people around me.

I'm tired of the shit that I'm always landing in,

just hoping for a simple life to move on.

Cant you people just let me off and give me a peaceful life?

By questioning me it can already tell how you all felt towards me.

It's all because of one jerk that use me to vent his anger and to provoke another friend of mine.

By tarnishing my reputation.

Thinking that by saying sorry can solve everything and make the situation better.

Thinking that by saying one sorry I'll forgive him.

To hell you go.

Now i can really see what kind of jerk you are,

using/hurting a person just to reach your smelly goal.

You call this you love me?

Shameless.

I hate jerks like you.

You been punk =)

♥ 1:40 PM

Thursday, April 30, 2009

♥ 1:08 AM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Ok finally I'm back in blogging after been hack so many times.

Countless account I've made.

So tired of it but I'm back to blog about part and pieces of my life.

It's my love that make me thought of coming back to blogger.

I would like to blog about us and I can look back

at the sweet memories we had.

I'm heading out to have lunch with my fren.

When I'm back I'll get everytin set up nicely =)

Love Wren.

♥ 12:19 PM